Panas hati!

Hari ni aku betul2 rasa nak mengamuk.Purify tak jadi (okeh nenek aku selalu tanya apa benda purify tu tapi sebab hari ni aku nak mengamuk taknak bagitau huh) and benda yang paling buat aku nak mengamuk is someone hurt my cousin (nama biarlah dirahsiakan).Dengar dia menangis dah cukup stab my heart.Aku pun rasa sakit apa lagi dia yang rasa.

Okay harini nak cakap bahasa melayu kasar , sebab marah ni marah ni (sila tahan aku sekarang jugak tak pasal2 ada orang lebam mata kena tumbuk).Heyy aku betul tak faham dengan budak perempuan ni, banyak2 orang kenapa tunang orang jugak yang kau nak menggatal weh? Tolonglah hormat kita ni kan sama2 kaum sejenis.Perempuan kot..Lagipun tak faham ke itu hak orang?Nak kata budak, umur dah 19. Dah tu kau kena tinggal kau menangis bagai nak gila lepas tu kau maki2 tunang orang balik?Ya ampun apa punya perangai lah?Sedangkan terang terangan dah bagitau itu adalah tunang dia.And aku tak salahkan perempuan tu je, dah dia dilahirkan gedik, tapi si lelaki pun sama. Susah sama2, dah bertunang,nak kahwin dah kenapa lah boleh layan perempuan yang terang terangan kau tahu perangai dia.Baik ke perempuan tu kalau dah tau orang dah menghampiri nak bina masjid tetiba kau selamber dek musnahkan??

Dear cousin...Ira harap jangan kamu sedih2 dah okay.Allah sayang kamu sebab tu kamu tahu lebih awal sebelum kahwin.Allah Maha Adil.Takpe kalau kamu hurt sekarang, takpe kalau kamu rasa oh dah susah sama2 dah senang kau melayan orang lain.Takpe.Sebab janji Allah itu benar.What goes around comes around.Tak payah susah2 mengharap dia kena balik.Sebab memang dia akan kena balik. Perempuan tu tak tau masa hadapan dia,nanti laki dia kena rampas baru dia tahu,tak payah nak sibuk cari balik orang yang kau buat melutut merayu minta maaf...yang si lelaki pulak ada mak,kakak,adik perempuan....Kau lari lubang cacing mana pun,Allah tetap balas.Kau tak takut rosakkan hubungan orang, tak takut hurt hati orang yg sayang kau,tapi Allah Maha Melihat.Tak esok,lusa korang kena.Dah tu jangan menyesal.

Dahla makan durian 4 bijik petang tadi memang panas ah!Dahla cukup sudah marah.Baik aku amik semayang solat sunat hajat supaya dijauhkan family aku dan aku serta kawan dari kena macam ni...For u my lovely cousin, you are beautiful,u got a good job..dont waste your time hurting.I know its hard Ive been through that before but sentiasa yakin dengan tuhan kita,Allah yg Maha Satu.He lost someone that truly loves him but you lost nothing.So dia yang rugi.I love u so much akak......

P/s: Mintak dijauhkan lah aku daripada menyakitkan hati kaum sejenis aku. Amin...

Cravingsssss....

Ish lately ni tak tau kenapa pantang tengok makanan mata bersinar2...Semua benda nak makan tambah2 dikala duit di tahap hidup segan mati tak mau *eh betul ke tak peribahasa ni.ah tibai je lah. Tapi satu sifat aku, kalau dah tekak tu teringin,pejamkan mata je.Heeee...Hujung bulan kelam kabut korek ASB kikiki macam mana nak kumpul duit pinang imam muda niiiiii....So antara makanan2 y aku tak habis2 mengidam dan kecur air liur tengok is:

First:

Sobs menangis melihatnya.Gue mauuuuuuuuu!!!!!

Second: 

French toast with icecream

Yang ni aku dah dapat makan kat alamanda haritu.Sumpah sedap tapi mauuuuuu lagi....

Third:

Pavlova.Benda ini sangat manis tapi3 aku teringin jugak.Macam mana sobsssss T.T

Ermm takde sape ke yang nak belanjer aku.Tee hee.Terbongkar maksud sebenar tee heee.... :p

Baik atau senang di buli??

Macam mana korang defined orang yang baik eh??For me,orang yang baik tu emm..solat penuh,hubungan dengan Allah number 1,menjaga hati,baik hubungan dengan ibu bapa,family,kawan2...Macam Nora Danish dlm cerita Dhia tu..Baik ler tu..

So berbalik kepada topik asal,macam mana korang cakap orang tu baik???Ermm pernah tak encounter situation when korang ditimpa malang and orang2 sekeliling akan cakap.."Hmmm tulah ko,baik sangat!' or "Dah ko baik sangat sebab tu la jadi macam ni" dan ayat2 yang sewaktu dengannya...Okay actually bila orang cakap macam tu, tak tau la kenapa..tapi aku rasa macam ayat sebenar yg nak disampaikan ialah"Awat hang ni dungu sangat cheq oiii..depa buli hang tu..pasai hang dungu lah jadi macam niiiiii"..-_-".Apa yang sebenarnya cuba disampaikan.Adakah aku ini senang dibuli???Tetapi baik dan senang dibuli itu mempunyai maksud yang berbeda..

Sebenarnya kadang2 bukan nak jadi baik sangat pun(atau pon senang dibuli) tapi serius...malas nak gaduh..And satu sifat aku is..biar orang lain salah pun,tapi karang aku jugak yang tak lena tidur kalau orang tu kecik hati...Yelah deal dengan hati orang kan...Takde pun istilah baik sangat or apa dalam hal ni...Ada ke orang yang senang hati dapat sakitkan hati orang lain???Kan?Tapi yelah I'm a human too..Sikit2 buli tu cukup lah yer...Jangan lah selalu sangat, kecik hati eden ni tau...Memang tak tunjuk,muka senyum tapi nanti balik bilik amik bantal menangis tau...Apain lo ingat hati gue ini batu???

So kepada uolss2 yang selalu cakap i baik tu..terima kasih sangat sebab mendoakan yang baik2 aja buat i...But sebenarnya baik tu memang tak layak dengan iolsss..Cumain,akan direnung2kan and dalam proses perubahan.InsyaAllah.And buat uolss yang rasa macam I ni senang dibuli..doakanlah lepas ni orang jangan buli I dah hehhehee..jangan doakan I jadi pembuli sudah.hihi....

Last week balik Kelantan with my besties....Juju I hope our friendship will last till the end......Walaupun makcik Rantau Panjang cakap I ore Kelantan lupa daratan..but I really enjoyed our trip there^.^

And tak lupa congrats tiq....Satu lagi besties da kawen..Tinggal la me and juju yang masih single..Selamat bercinta hingga ke syurga ye tiq and ridi!

Kinohimitsu J'pan Detox Tea....

Lately I gained a lot of tummy fat...I was naturally slim all my life before(bluekkk but its true im almost underweight) but just lately my weight dramatically increased...When I come back from Korea,I just weigh 41kilos...and now...taraaaa 50.8...And Im only 156cm tall..Its not that I dont like having some meat at my body...but I become annoyingly fat...my legs are still as skinny as twig but my tummyy ahhhhhhh..stressss..SSSS....hihi...I need to reduce my weight and that tummy fat!!Because Im not a sport people and I hate fish and veges,,I do exercise and jogged,but the result is not as fast as I wanted so I decided to CHEAT.

So I asked my friend who has tried detox...She has really slim tummy..stressSSS again.I asked her what's the secret and she introduced me this..

Okay so it's only 25.60 cents so why not give a try...I bought it at WATSON and I got this free mind relaxing drink(which didnt help much on relaxing I even end up sleeping at 2.30 a.m after drinking it)...Okay so the first day I drink it...emmm...nothing happen.Just some wind grumbling in my stomach.But after 8 hour, it did the works.Not that frequent,but  once you have,its like having a typhoon in your stomach.Okay maybe my toxin level is very high so this tea is working hard to eliminate all that(I always think that there are some tiny worker working hard to clean my colon ermmm)...So for the second day I drink..I still feel that rumbling but this time only 1 time to toilet..okay so 1 cup,1 toilet time...

So this is my 3rd day...I feel my tummy fat start to lose a little(or me imagining that ha..ha-_-")..But I did feel more comfortable with my body especially my stomach...But from the reviewers some say that it works for them and some not..So it up to your body I think...Just for me I hope this will help eliminates my tummy fat and of course improve my health.

P/s:Just as reminder this tea works after 8-12 hour so plan when you want to drink it okayy..Hiiihi...

Comfort zone....

Emmm bersawang dah blog ni.It;s been ages since my last post...Life routine sama+ takde mood.Hmmmm....Tapi lately, tangan ni gatal je nak type something.Walaupun takde orang pun baca blog but I think its good to be able to express myself here.

Lately,I've been questioning myself about how far I should go out of my comfort zone...Fuh topik berat nih habis la kena fire hehe...Yela...I always afraid to take a new step...Ok example lah..Selama 5 tahun duduk kat UPM serdang ni,tiap kali pergi MINES, pergi foodcourt,I never change my menu..Bayangkan lah dari 1st year sampai 5th year, "Kak nak nasi ayam blackpepper satu"....Air pulak "longan satuuu...." Itu jelah menu dari kecik sampai dah tua ni ha...sama jugak kalau pergi mana2 kedai makan pun,kalau dah mula biasa dengan kedai tu...bila da rasa satu makanan sedap..memang tu jela menu n takkan bertukar..Kalau kawan2 order benda lain pun,me tetap setia emmm tomyam campur satu,telur dadar nasi putih ye..Sampai kakak Restoran Sala tu dah boleh tanya emmm tomyam campur??Before sempat bukak mulut pun...

Kadang2 bila orang tanya tak boring ke asyik makan benda yang sama je???Entah nak jawab apa...Tapi sebenarnya takut...Takut bila tukar makanan dapat yang tak sedap nanti sedih....(Okay aku memang cepat sedih kalau bab makanan ni tambah2 kalau tengah lapar dapat makan tak sedap confirm nangis)...Sebenarnya..banyak kali je menu yg biasa tu, dapat2 je rasa dia lain..Kadang2 masin,kadang2 pahit,kdang2 tawar...But still i'll stick to that menu....Dalam kepala fikir..emm takpe give chance la kan..maybe harini tukang masak dia penat....but kadang2 thing just go worse and worse...Kadang2..2,3 kali pergi makin lama makin tak sedap....Sama je la macam everything in my life...Disebabkan takut nak keluar dari comfort zone..yg sebenarnya tak comfort pun..just afraid of new changes I tend to hurt myself...Orang kata bagus lah tak payah nak buat decision but i need to make an important step...I need to change...I can't stay like this...Living in my comfort zone...stay here because I'm  so used to it...and tell you its not an easy task for a person yg selama 5 tahun kat UPM tak pernah makan benda lain selain ayam blackpepper kat foodcourt MINES.....

Hmm...Ya Allah I need YOUR guidance and I reallly need your help...Please give me strength....Rasanya habis master ni nak tukar profession lah..nak kerja bank..dah taknak duduk dalam field ni..Boleh tak????And lepas ni pergi MINES dah taknak makan ayam blackpepper...I will stop giving chance dekat tukang masak tu yg berpuluh2 kali bagi chance pon makin lama makin tak sedap ayam blackpepper yg aku masak...Terbang 6.80sen....Okbye.Hehe....

The quest for the healthy diet^.^

Okay headline nak gempak je..Gaya nak macam celebrity...like.. "Hello guys..from now on I will assist you on how to eat healthily and get a longer life".. konon2 Chef Nigella Lawson ok hot sangat,emm Martha Stewart  emm to multitalented  ok yelah2.. Chef Wan.Heyyy okay whatt??He's a millionaire okay!

Okay.Sebenarnya tak macam tu.Takde kena mengena pun dengan chef celebrity segala.Just nak share the sudden change of my diet.From this-->
Morning:Nasi lemak Afternoon:Rice,Ayam goreng berempah,Kari gulai kawah Dinner:Rice, Ayam masak lemak Supper:Burger ramly.Okay terkejut tak?Ni menu tengah kaya lah ni which is 10 days after allowance came in.Heh.Hairan jugak rasanya setiap kali makan baca je doa tapi asal banyak sangat makan ni??Sedar tak sedar after years of this unhealthy diet..My cholestrol level jump to 7 which is considered very high.Normal cholestrol level is 4 if I'm not mistaken.

Actually this unhealthy diet starts because I was too excited to increase my weight.Tak tahan orang asyik panggil cekeding which is satu dua kali boleh terima but called u with that name in front of your teachers,friends and even your crush...ini memang tak boleh jadi.So terjadilah menu seperti di atas dan cholestrol level 7.Tapi badan tak lah naik mana pun.Spare tyre je lebih.HUKHUKHUK.So dengan ini saya bertekad biar saya kurus.Let people call me si keding,si kurus and what so ever as long as I know I'm perfectly healthy.

So start with this week..change my diet to this--->Morning: Cereal of the week-Honeystar+low fat milk+kiwi,Afternoon-Rice,Vegetable,Protein(this part is very hard because I don't like fish) Dinner-Oat+Fruit(for this week kiwi) and supper-Low fat milk.Lama mana tahan tak tahu lah.Persevere Ira!All I need is perseverance.Me and Kak Iffah my quest to the healthy life partner,also jog 3 times a week jugak tau.Bukan jaga makan je.hehhee...

Hope sangat boleh trunkan cholestrol level as well as my spare tyre yang tak larat nak sorok ni.Emm tiba2 malam ni rasa nak makan KFC.Opps.HIHIHI.Chow!

"Whatever happens,it must happens with reason"

Whenever my friends shared their problems,I always tell them this-Whatever happens in your life it must happens with reason yadda yadda yadda...I don't know why but I think I was born with listening abilities and giving advises.Maybe I should quit doing this scientific research and continue being a counsellor or whatever...


For me, giving advises is easy and there is a time where I tend to be so emotional when my friend can't accept my advises.But that was long time ago when I was young where I didn't encounter any of serious problem..I thought it was easy to just switch your feeling from not OK to OK.Been showered with tones of problems,from studies,family to relationship problems, I grew up to understand that advises is not necessarily followed. What my friends need from me is to lend an ear to hear their problems and a shoulder for them to cry on. As for me, I am so thankful that Allah gives me friends that really understand me.A family that really support me in whatever decision I take.My life is not so perfect, it was broken here and there but I learn to fix it by time.Experience had thought me a lot but still as a human, series of continuously problem will collapse my system leading to an emotional breakdown.And...

EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN

Am I experiencing an emotional breakdown???If yes how severe it is???Im afraid to discuss what is happening as it may touch the sensitivity and hurt somebody..but frankly speaking it almost driving me crazy.... T.T

Ya Allah I hope you give me the strength to get through this..I hope i can settle my research by this year...Allah please guide me in whatever decision I take..."Whatever happens it happens with reason"...I should not question why when sorrow comes unless I did the same when the happiness comes in my life...Be grateful and keep strong baby!Hopefully everything will be smooth after this..Amin....